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Tetris.

Just one day the blocks will come tumbling down at you. Leaving holes and spaces but no time to comprehend. Maybe it was never about filling the spaces. It’s about leaving the right spaces at the right time. 

So yesterday a friend asked me: Have you ever met someone and felt as if no one will ever replace that void when they leave?

My answer was yes.

Yes, there are empty spots in my life that no one else can fill, and yes, no one will ever make it the same.

This was when it stuck out to me, everyone in my life has a very special spot. Everyone was special in their own way, and none of them can replace one another. When someone leaves, they also leave an empty spot - a void that can never be filled in the same way it was.

I was reminded of a snippet from my not so proudly (since it was last minute but secretly kind of proudly) written HSC creative - something I had written without deep thought. It's quite ironic to remember google imaging 'random objects' to come up with the motifs in my creative. Intentional or not, only now I feel as if I really made meaning out of it.

Here's my hopefully not so ridiculous analogy on life:

These people, things, opportunities are all Tetris tiles. There are spaces - gaps to be filled. But like a Tetris game, you can't just shove these tiles into any empty space. Because new tiles- new people, new things, new opportunities will keep coming, each with their unique shape.

When someone leaves, perhaps all the rows that their tile was in had been filled completely and their purpose in your life is complete - some people becoming a staple of your life, but some, gone. They open up new spaces, and new unique tiles will fill up these gaps in completely different ways.

And so the spaces that was left open will be filled - just in a way it never has been before.

However, if you try shoving an unfitting tile into an open space, you leave even more gaps and risk ending up with a stack of madness.

Maybe, its better when these gaps are left open when a tile does not fit. It's all about leaving the right spaces at the right time so that better fitting tiles will come along.

So here's to me (and anyone) if I ever feel like nothing's going right - hold on and look to the things that makes you happy. All good and bad things come to an end, but they will keep coming. And perhaps just one day, you will be ever so content with how each and every tile fits in your life - even with all these holes and spaces and no time to comprehend.

Note: I was inspired to start this blog but this doesn't pinpoint a new chapter of my life. It's simply a speck in a whole great process of ups and downs, feels and rants, ideas and motivation and everything in between. Will be blogging about my baby carrots, 6 am challenges and the like, travel, thoughts, inspiration and pretty much everything. (All the tiles and the gaps) ^_^